what is the geekiest part of your music collection?
+ I guess george winston. Contemporary piano instrumentals probably arent cool.

what do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
+ anything microwavable (fucking lasagna)

what is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
+ its no secret; You've Got Mail

if you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?
+ gross. I have MTV, so I know how shitty plastic surgery is.

do you have a completely irrational fear?
+ Big things that live in the ocean. I seriously can't handle those deep sea creatures that are fucking HUGE, but we like barely know that they even exist. Giant squid? shit no, I can't handle it.

what is a physical habit that gives away your insecure moments?
+ touching my face

do you know anyone famous?
+ I guess bryce avery?

describe your bed?
+ "a broken bed with dirty sheets that creeks when I am shifting in my sleep." It's the top bunk, and its loud and a pain in the ass. I plan to sleep as close to the floor as possible from now on.

spontaneous or plan?
+ spontaneous I guess

do you know how to play poker?
+ no

what do you carry with you at all times?
+ my student id. I need it alot, ok!?

what do you miss most about being little?
+ the ability to be completely oblivious

are you happy with your given name?
+ totally

how much money would it take to give up the internet for 1 year?
+ enought to afford a 1 year vacation to some remote island, because that is what it would take to sustain such a feat

what color is your bedroom?
+ blue? we have a white ceiling though.

what was the last song you listened to?
+ "The High Party" by Ted Leo and the Pharmacists

have you ever been in a play?
+ yes

do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
+ totally

do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?
+ never! I love homeless people.

do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
+ yes

do you spend more time with your significant other or your friends?
+ friends (when the question applies)

whats one thing you wish you could do but can't?
+ cook really really well

what is your ideal marriage location?
+ on the beach, no family there; only friends.

whats one instrument you wish you could play?
+ piano

something you love and hate?
+ being insanely busy

what kind of bedding do you use?
+ denim tshirt sheets, denim comforter

do you tell your friends about your sex life?
+ very rarely

whats one language you want to learn?
+ well, I'd like to become fluent in spanish. Also I want to learn french.

what do you order at a bar?
+ gin and tonic or newcastle

have you ever pierced your body parts?
+ yes

do you have any tattoos?
+ I got the one, more to come

would you admit to getting plastic surgery if confronted?
+ yeah, I guess so

do you drive stick?
+ no

whats one trait you hate in a person?
+ superficiallity

what kind of watch do you wear?
+ my brown shorty's skateboards watch. it is cheap.

most frivilous purchase?
+ $30 hair gel

do you consider yourself materialistic?
+ oh totally

what do you cook best?
+ cheesburger macaroni

favorite writing instrument?
+ pen

do you prefer to blend in or stand out?
+ doesnt matter

do you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
+ not COMPLETELY like the oppposite sex, but more often than not i'm wearing at least one item of girls clthing.

what is one car you will never buy?
+ a pick up truck

what kind of books do you like to read?
+ Hemmingway, Salinger, Steinbeck, Vonnegut. Early to Mid 20th century fiction mostly.

if you won the lottery, what would you do?
+ buy a car, pay for school. Just live a normal comfortable life

burial or cremation?
+ cremation I guess? It's best to focus on living.

whats one thing you are a sore loser at?
+ anything involving journalism

if you don't like a person, how do you show it?
+ haha, I usually tell everyone but that person. They find out eventually.

do you cry in front of your friends?
+ I dont cry

what kind of first impression do you think you give people?
+ good?

whats one thing you like to do alone?
+ write

are you a giver or a taker?
+ I think I'm a taker, because I take way more often than I give

what have you stolen before?
+ bowling shoes, cups from jason's deli

how many drinks before your tipsy?
+ 1 if its a mixed drink, 2 or 3 if its beer

do you ever have to beg?
+ too proud for that

have you ever done any illegal drugs?
+ only those few times

do you think you're cute?
+ totally! I'm freakin adorable and everyone knows it.

do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
+ ummm, as long as the undies are staying on then I got no beef.

whats the most painful experience you've ever had?
+ physical pain? I guess breaking my leg.
Emotional Pain? they are all the different versions of what is essentially the same story.

favorite communication method?
+ letters/post cards

---No Pants Party

-Cheerleading shorts

-cute girls in underwear

-40s of PBR

-Spin the Bottle

-Texas Pride


Best monday night ever.

I have succeeded in feeling like shit for an entire evening. First for not being 21, then for not having a girlfriend and not even having a girl to crush on and want to be my girlfriend. This is only the second time in my life that i have not had ANYONE, and it sucks completely. Like driving in your car, then breaking down on the side of the road, and having to wait for someone completely wonderful to rescue you. You might stay on the side of the road until you die. Pray that you don't. THEN I felt like shit for being the pretentious and judgemental person that I am, and not being able to apologize for it. People need to get over it.

I drank too much coffee, it is late.

I need a job

I need a place to live

I need love

do you have any of these things? Are you willing to sell them to me at a reasonable price? I would do anything to not feel like me right now.

Huwhaaat!? Huwhaaat!? Huwhaaaat!? Okaaaaaaaaeeey!


Let me tell you an amusing story involving me, and the ENTIRE greek community, and how we all came to be in the same room together.

I will preface this by admitting that I know absolutely NOTHING about being in a fraternity, or sorority. Those greek letters might as well be in russian, because I have no clue about any of it. All I know is that sorority girls are usually blonde, and are really really hot. I also know that frat guys are much bigger than me, and they look like an Abercrombie store threw up on them.

that being said, we are in the midst of "greek week" on campus, although greek week has technically been happening for approximately 3 weeks now. Part of greek week is all the frats and sororities get together in Jesse Auditorium and do skits. I was assigned to shoot this for the maneater. The main word to describe this whole event is "overwhelming." First I was overwhelmed by the huge concentration of hot girls. It was awesome. Then, all these greek organizations started doing chants and things in between the skits. Apparently the different frats and sororities have aliances and enemies, like gangs. Certain ones just go together. So they start cheering for each other, and they have flashlights and all this shit. It is insane in there. So fucking loud. Then I start shooting and realize that it is going to be hard as fuck to get these people's names, since I've already declared that all greek people look the same to me. So I shoot photos for 10 minutes, and then spend the next HOUR chasing people down, stuttering when talking to girls, trying not to piss off huge football playing guys, and praying that I can find the 5 or 6 people I need in a sea of close to 1000 people. Only by a stroke of luck did I find the guy in one of the musical numbers who knew everyone's names.

more than anything I decided that as little that I knew about greek organizations, now after being only slightly enlightened to the subject that I'm even more confused about it. More than anything, I am confused about how to talk to hot sorority girls.

I think that this should become my blog for talking about the weird dreams that I have all the time.


I dreamed last night that it was band banquet time again, and for some reason I agreed that my banquet date would be a blind date, to be set up by a coercive effort between my father and brother. They agreed on a girl from southlake named Stein (WTF!?). She was really lame and complained for the whole goddamn time. Also, band banquet was held in a big auditorium, with movie theater style seats. the seats were blue. Then I see April there, and her mom is there also. April's mom is about to make her leave because in this dream April's mom is a curfew nazi, and it was like 11:15 or something. But April is really upset about something, so we go outside to talk but I can't calm her down. All I can do is hold her in my arms and let her cry, but other than that I was useless. That part of the dream was really upsetting.

Then I woke up.

last night I dreamed that I transfered to UT, and was unbelievably happy there. My english teacher was like a ziggy stardust era David Bowie, and he wore girl pants. All my friends were around, and I lived in austin which is widely reputed to be one of the most fun towns around. It was great.

the Shakespeare's application is amazing.

"is music something you enjoy occasionally, or is it the meaning of your life?"

and then the rant on the back:

"There are some things that bear mentioning. We ertainly don't minde if you smoke, but you must be able to work for hours at a time without having to take a smoke break. We do not tolerate the use of drugs or other illegal crap on the job. you must be good with numbers; you should be able to easily add 3.36 and 2.76 in your head for instance. You should be physically fit, able to lift large objects and work at a quick pace for long periods of time."


I really want this job.

Things I like:

seeing people dressed up really fancy in a place that isnt fancy, like people who go to McDonalds after prom.
Norah Jones
Improv Comedy
flip flops w/ jeans
Chipotle
girls with short hair
The OC
procrastinating

Things I dont like:

My spanish presentation (due tomorrow, yeah!)
Christina Aguilera
Doing laundry
mayonase
not being able to sleep
the beatles
the belt loops that have ripped on my jeans (expect an irate letter from me GAP)
george bush

Last night I covered a drag show for the maneater. It was really weird, because there were times when I was like "man that girl is really hot," fully knowing that it was really a man. I decided though that it was ok, because it that person had looked exactly the same except they had a boobs and a vagina then it would be normal, and in a drag show boobs and vaginas are severely overlooked.

Also, I saw really hot girls that actually were girls, but they were lesbians. It was incredibly frustrating.

More than anything, I learned that you should not try to meet girls at a drag show. It is a no win situation.

I think it is horribly cute when girls make the "rawr" noise. or even if they type it; it works either way.


I did nothing today.

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever lose the friends I have. In generations before us, people who were friends in high school routinely lost touch with each other. That is partly why there are high school reunions. But now we live in such a different time. The internet has set our generation apart from that of our parents in many ways, but more than anything it has made communication so much easier. I live in missouri, but I still talk to Leslie, Lizzie, Kerry and other friends in Texas, Erin in Illinois, and other people who are all over the world. So it really seems impossible that we could ever fall out of touch. But will the breakdowns in communication continue to exist? Where will I be after college? Where will my friends be? Who will be our new friends? No matter the answer to all of these questions it is still easy to imagine a quick "hey" IM from time to time, or a friendly email that waits in your inbox every couple months. I have a hard time imagining that we will fall out of touch, but I still have an overwhelming feeling that it will happen anyway.

Bob Nanna put an entry on The Wire advertising that if someone in columbia brought(bought) him the new modest mouse cd, that they would get two spots on the guest list for their show. How could I not take advantage of that opportunity?

The show was really sad. Hey Mercedes was great, but the other bands weren't so hot. Grandaddy is boring. All of their songs sound the same, and their singer is lyrically inept. Saves the Day was awful! They are so boring, and they played too many new songs, and Chris got way fat. Brian and I left early.

The show was chock full of high school kids and frat guys. I felt very out of place. I only saw one other person that I knew.

Still, now I have a note from bob nanna (he left before we could meet him) in my moleskine and it was nice to meet his... merch guy. Well, the merch guy (dave) was cool. Could have been worse.