how did I get here?

how does a normal 19 year old boy, who maybe isnt the cutest but certainly pure in heart/intentions, wind up sleeping on a love seat in his girlfriend's apartment? Who decided that her sister is a more qualified candidate for bed sharing? Why is the Album Leaf's "In A Safe Place" so good? Will my neck be stiff when i wake up? How cold does this apartment get at night? It was warm before, when there was someone else to provide heat while sleeping, but tonight is a horse of a very different color (black). Did she not like the flowers? Maybe the candles were too much? So what is left to do now? Go downstairs and chainsmoke? It's fucking freezing outside.

The more I stare at a computer or the lights in the ceiling, the more my contacts rebel against my resistance to blinking and they choose a form of protest which involves mimicking the sahara.

There are suitcases piled in the corner, filed with clothes and cameras and hairgel and other material posessions so requisite for survival that they are hauled everywhere with an unwavering acceptance of this commercial burden.

I'm tired of school

I'm tired of my family

I'm tired of life

I'm tired.



(I'm sorry this post was so emo).

Chris Hires tells you about places he has been: Lincoln, Nebraska

Lincoln Nebraska is a cold, windy place. The atmosphere is soaked with a feeling of static, a feeling that this place has transfixed itself in a moment in time and it will not move forward until you or someone you know provides them with a good enough reason for doing so.

When we were arriving in Lincoln, Nebraska (at approximately 10pm) it was so cold and windy that pieces of corn were blowing across the road, and I had to dodge them with my car. Think about THAT for a minute.

Ok.

So Nebraska is a cold, windy, static place where corn blows across the road. All of these elements combined have the unique effect of causing visitng football teams to embarass the fans who love them so much. Fumbled punts, interceptions, no folly was too great for the Missouri Tigers on that miserable Saturday morning.

Because of all of these things, I will advise you to never go to Lincoln, for it is a very cold, windy, static place that causes visiting football teams to lose in the most tragic of ways.

What you learned what you read in their books
all they offered
what you saw when they told you to look
a final offer

well today we are giving birth to a new future
yes today we are giving birth to our own future

we will learn we will love we will work
to change each other
we will spread we will cover the earth
like air and water
Water Water Water (change each other)
We will spread we will cover the earth like air and water

tomorrow is blank
well just fill it in with our little answers
if we are stopped well just start again
that is the new offer
that's it
that is our final one.