Hello Hammerheads

So Wednesday, after much deliberation, barely nudged itself into the position of the worst day of my entire life. The thing that finally put it in the lead was the fact that my roommate Kyle kicked a foot stool onto my computer while I was at work, and now I'm operating in gimp mode. Still, here are some things:

- So full of hate and anger these days! I pace around downtown every day, looking for her. I dont know why. If I saw her, I wouldnt say anything. And why would you want to see someone you hate? I dont know. But I have to keep moving. I've run out of places to run to in my car, so instead there is just the constant walking.

- I work in a coffee shop now, and I already hate it.

- Every night I come home from work and I drink. I usually do this because it's easier to pass out than to stay up all night thinking about all of the awful things I want to say to her.

- Every night I play the lottery. I found the most amazing apartment ever, but its $1,100 a month. After much deliberation, we have decided that the only way for me to earn that much money that quickly would be through prostitution, selling drugs or winning the lottery. I have chosen the former, and more legal of those options.

- I havent won the lottery yet, but I did win $2 last night.

- "Some people try / to tell me why / I made up my mind and left her."