"I need you so much closer..."

I keep playing that song but I have no one in mind at all for it to be directed to. I need anyone right now really. I need someone from texas, or someone who loves me, or both.

Today was one of the worst days of maybe my whole life. I'm drunk, and alone in a dorm room on a tuesday night; this really isnt ending up any better than it started. Everything was good here for two weeks, but now the bottom is starting to drop out from under me, and I want desperately to feel like I used to as a teenager. Invincible, safe, filled with love for almost everyone.


<3 Chris


PS - Lizzie has deleted her blog, and when I discovered this tonight it drove the final nail in the coffin that is this awful day. I dont think she ever realized how great it was.