What's It Gonna Be?

Missouri or Texas? I can't decide.

There are times when I can't imagine living anywhere except Columbia. I just want to go back to everything I know. Back to Shakespeare's and Tellers. Back to 9th st, and the Blue Note. I miss the quad, and seeing Jesse Hall glowing at night above all the other buildings. I miss living next to the power plant, next to the soothing flashes of the red lights on the exhaust towers. I want to go back to the J-Slums. I want to go to parties with Matt Sutorius, Austin and Aaron Richter. I want to smoke cigarettes and talk shit with Becca Eden.

But other times I feel like Denton would be best. I'd be close to home, close to family. I'd also be close to amazing mexican food. And god knows that there no party can top a Denton party. The Texas kids can party like you wouldnt believe. They'd rock the socks off the CoMO kids.

But then again sometimes I dont want a new start. I want to go back to what is familiar, to all my friends in Missouri. Something inside me says I should just go back to Columbia with my tail between my legs and finish what I started. But going back there would be really difficult. That journalism school isnt too forgiving. And I'm not sure it would be the same as before. Harkin is gone for good, so I can't think of any reason to go back to East Campus. Downtown is the new East Campus anyways.

Maybe it would just be easier to make a fresh start in Texas. I dont know.

I dont know what to do.