I Am Trying To Break Your Heart

Jesus, what a fucking day. So long! And not even close to being over! I need to go to chipotle.

The best/worst part of the day is that I cast off several demons from my shoulders this afternoon at lunch. I'm so close to being ok, I can actually see light at the end of the tunnel now. Of course, she's already fine with it. I hate her for being better at this than me. The downside to lunch was I found out alot of other things about her that I hate as well. She wants it all to be ok, for us to not hate each other. You know the scene at the end of Rules of Attraction, where Laura and Paul are walking in the snow, and you find out that they used to date before Paul came out? Yeah, she wants us to be like that. Maybe someday, but I dont know if thats going to happen soon. I sure hate her guts right now, and I can't see that changing. And if she doesnt like that, fucking tough. She doesn't get to have her cake and eat it too.